I can't keep it up. I think it's very likely that at least one out of the next seven nights I won't get a post up. It's just getting too tough to get one up every single night, while still getting schoolwork done and getting any halfway decent amount of sleep. It's true that I need the blog for sanity, and most of the time, I really love blogging. But there were multiple nights this week where it felt like a chore - like work. It's become something I have to do. I have to post tonight, because I post every day. I have to put up something good because if I don't, I'll be letting my readers down.
That last one's bull, and we all know it, of course. I'm not saying y'all don't like reading my posts, 'cause in general, I imagine you do. If you didn't, I don't think you'd still be reading. But your world doesn't revolve around me and my posts, so if I don't get one up for some reason, I'm pretty sure you'll still be okay. You don't need me and my blog to keep your mental health in balance. (If you do, I recommend seeking therapy. Because the responsibility of being your sole sanity anchor will drive me crazy.)
Sunshine Scribe recently decided to give herself a time-out. And while I'm sad to see her go for a while, I respect her decision. And I understand it too. When blogging stops fulfilling its original purpose, it's time to rethink it. And most importantly, personal blogs are just that - they're personal. Which means they're inextricably linked to people. And each of those people needs to put his or her needs above the needs of blog-readers. SS needed to take care of herself. And I need to take care of me.
Don't get me wrong - I'll still be here, posting fairly ofen. And maybe after tonight I'll be flooded with the desire to write all the time and the once-a-day postings will continue uninterrupted. But I wanted to give a heads-up, so that if (or when) the night comes that I think, "I don't feel like blogging tonight," I'll know you won't all be left wondering what happened.
Maybe I just need to put less pressure on myself to be a perfect blogger. Well, actually, maybe I just need to put less pressure on myself to be perfect.