Tuesday, June 02, 2009

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Posted by Lara at 8:30 PM
No, I don't like what I've let happen to this blog. I don't know what I want. Well, what I want is to want to blog. The fact is that the desire just hasn't been there. Often my brain is just so fried by the time I get home that I don't want to try to put any more sentences together. I also think very carefully about what I should or shouldn't post regarding school and various school-related people, and more often than not I end up deciding to play it safe by not posting anything.

I used to be a blogger. Am I still? How long can you go without blogging and still call yourself a blogger? I liked the blogger I was. Last year, when I went to Blogher '08, I was in a zone. I liked my style, I liked my site, and I liked all the people I connected with who joined me for my ride through life. And then I started teaching, and my blogging frequency tanked. And then my readership tanked. And then my frequency tanked more. And then I just flat-out left. What the hell, right? What happened?

I don't like that it happened, but I also don't know how to fix it. Blogging was never supposed to feel like a chore. It's not my job - it's a hobby. It's supposed to be something I enjoy. So if I wasn't enjoying it, wasn't it right to stop?

Whatever happened, I'm sorry. I hope the people who honestly care about me - whether I met you in real life or on the internet (or both) - are still willing to read when I am around. But I can't make promises about when that will be. I do know it won't be for a few weeks at least, though.

Tomorrow afternoon I am flying to Paris, France with 20 students and 6 other adults. We'll arrive in Paris around 11am Thursday morning, spend the day sightseeing, and get on a plane to Johannesburg, South Africa around 11pm. After a couple hours killing time in Johannesburg, we'll fly to Lilongwe, Malawi, and then to our final destination in Blantyre, Malawi sometime late Friday afternoon. I will be home again (via the same route in reverse) on June 20.

I really do love you guys, and I want to promise I'll post about the trip. But the fact is that I love you too much to make a promise I'm not sure I can keep, so I'll just say see ya around.

12 comments:

franz the mouse said...

Have an awesome trip!

myrelish on 3:03 AM said...

Even if your posts are sporadic, I still enjoy reading what you write so you will remain in my reader. Have a great trip.

Lisa on 5:07 AM said...

As I teacher I TOTALLY get being too busy to post. I can't tell you how many times I've had a good blogging idea and then I don't get to it and then time passes and the idea is gone or past dated.....and now I feel like all I ever post on my blog is pictures and stories of my daughter and I'm sure people are sick of it.....I've had to accept that I post when I can, and I post what I can, and the people that stick around to read it are few and far between but they are there.
All that aside, have an awesome trip! You are so lucky to have such a great opportunity, as are your students!

Wolf Lover Girl on 10:03 AM said...

Girlfriend, I so know what you mean. I just posted for the first time on my blog since March!! Wow! Sometimes things - such as life - just happens! ;-)

But man, I really can't wait to hear your trip report. Sounds so exciting. Have a very fun and safe trip!!!!

~ Wolf Lover Girl

Mrs. Chili on 4:34 PM said...

I've said it before, I'll say it again; this is YOUR site, you get to write it (or not) how YOU choose.

I, for one, will be here when (if) you decide to post. I'm good that way...

Take LOTS of pictures on your trip; it sounds amazing!

BetteJo on 5:04 PM said...

Sounds like an unforgettable trip for you and the students. Not like any school I ever went to! Wow!

Mrs. Higrens on 10:53 AM said...

If I didn't blog at work, I wouldn't blog at all. Keep writing when you are feeling it and don't force yourself. Your writing is like good chocolate, something to be savored, and not produced in bulk.

Have a great trip!

Clair on 6:52 PM said...

Wow, what a tremendous trip. I hope you have a terrific time!

Miss Teacha on 2:04 PM said...

Teaching is OVERWHELMING! And I still consider you a blogger. You will stay in my feeder forever. I've learned so much from you and I'm sure when you have time, you'll teach us so much more.

Have a great summer break!

KennethSF on 11:55 PM said...

Somehow, I get the feeling what you see and feel during this trip will inspire you to blog again.

I don't think you should feel bad about taking a break from blogging. The truth is, if you blog when you're not inspired, it'll show. Then you won't feel good about what you write.

As a rule, I don't blog unless something noteworthy happened and I'm inspired to write. Since time is so precious these days for all of us, I feel I shouldn't squander my readers' time unless I have something worth sharing.

At any rate, living life should take precedence over recording it.

See you when you return!

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday...

Betsey said...

Hi there-I am a fellow teacher and just happened upon your blog. My first thought in reading through your posts is "She needs to put the hammer away". My second thought is "Get thee to the psychiatrist quickly!" Stop being so hard on yourself about posting sporadically. Having said that, call the doctor. I understand depression and oftentimes no, it does not go away on its own. My heart goes out to you and please post when you can. I am rooting for you, Lara!

 

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