It has been brought to my attention that my lack of disclosure may be leading to unfair misrepresentations in the blog. To make explicit something everyone should have figured out by now, J. (formerly known as Fiance) and I broke up. We are currently still living together, but that situation is up in the air and still being discussed. Time will tell.
It was mentioned to me, however, that while my writing may have made this much clear, it has only caused confusion as to why. My “moping” and “depressed” posts, I hear, have likely been giving the mistaken impression that J. did something awful to me and kicked me to the curb.
This could not be further from the truth. J. has been amazingly supportive during my struggles, and I may not have been able to make it through without his help. As for the reasons for the break-up, those will not be discussed here. But suffice to say this was my fault, not his – I take the blame for this one. And really, that’s probably why I did take it so hard, because I knew it was all my fault. Having no one to blame but myself, I could turn only to my own self-loathing in evaluating the relationship. It’s important to me that you all know that J. did nothing wrong, no matter what the posts might suggest.
On a completely unrelated – but much more amusing – note, I had a moment of shame this morning, and so I put the question to you: Is it really awful that I can immediately identify which episode of Saved by the Bell it is by the outfits the characters are wearing? I think it probably is…