Sorry about the NaBloPoMo fail. I gave up. I'm going to try to continue posting regularly, but I've clearly given up on the "every day" plan. I just end up appreciating sleep too much to remember to post every night. Tonight, though, you get some thoughts...
One of my students called me out on playing favorites. She did so respectfully, in an appropriate situation, and kindly, but she was pretty straightforward about it. It is, in her mind, my greatest flaw as a teacher. I know that she's right, and I'm trying to figure out how best to fix it. Part of the problem is that I'm trying to figure out how to do what Christian School wants me to do, which is to walk this magical fine line between remaining distant from the students as their teacher, and being relational with the students as a role model. I'm supposed to be a part of their life as more than just someone who teaches them grammar and literature, but I'm not supposed to be one of their peers. It's a really tough balance to strike.
Do I have my favorite kids? Yes, undoubtedly. The thing is, I think it's only obvious because they seek me out outside of the classroom and spend time with me. Because of that, we have stories and jokes and people see us together around campus. There are SO MANY other kids that I would LOVE to hang out with, but they don't seek out my company, and I'm not going to press myself into their social lives. I think if they did try to spend time with me, they would become "favorites" too, and pretty quickly I would have about 50 "favorite" students.
At any rate, I think it's definitely something to pay more attention to, and I need to start paying closer attention to how much I mention certain students to other students. Hard line to walk, but I can always be improving how I walk it.